Tag Archives: fear

Going Home

I am lying awake thinking of love and stories, knowing that tomorrow I will be on a plane back to where all the memories started. My mind circles through now and then, confusing tides of wanting and leaving that wash … Continue reading

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Angry

I realized that I have not stopped being angry. Not necessarily in general, or in some loud, raging way. No, I have not stopped being angry in a small, quiet kind of way about a few things. Memories. Events. Basically … Continue reading

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I Don’t Know

It’s surprising, how often the phrase “I don’t know” happens in treatment. It’s the go-to answer to dodge questions, to avoid discomfort, to get out of having to face things one would rather not face. “How are you feeling?” “I … Continue reading

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Struck

I am stricken by the fear that you don’t love me. You were distant yesterday, and when you said goodnight there were only cold, hard periods at the end of your sentences, not one of those sweet nothings that I … Continue reading

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The Scariest Moment

              – Stephen King  

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Lay Your Head Down

Couldn’t sleep last night. I went to bed at 11, woke up at 1, woke up at 3, woke up at 4 and 5 and 6. At some point I gave up on trying to sleep in my bed and … Continue reading

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Creativity and Coffee

Creativity and Coffee   Creativity and coffee go together and fear is fury’s ghost. Frustration’s on my daily schedule and I lunch with pain more than do most.   There’s creamer in the cupboard and my dreams upon a shelf, … Continue reading

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