Monthly Archives: October 2012

Tears

I can’t cry anymore. I used to be able to cry. I’ve always been pretty sensitive. I cry because someone got hurt. I cry because someone’s mad at me. Hell, I even cried during the movie Lilo and Stitch. Oh … Continue reading

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Obsession

I worry that I’m going to die from this. I’m obsessed with being thin. I don’t feel acceptable unless I’m thin. It’s like there isn’t anything else that would be acceptable for me. I know it’s a double standard. I … Continue reading

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Recovering

Well, it’s started. The journey, that is, of recovery. I arrived at Montecatini last Wednesday, and I’ve been settling in since then. Honestly – and this could be because I’m just a bit biased based on what I’m used to … Continue reading

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Confusion

I’m moving more slowly than I normally do. Thinking, talking, even just walking is something that takes effort. Just put one foot in front of the other. Just keep moving. I’m bumping into things, literally tripping over my own feet. … Continue reading

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Dreams

Last night I had a lot of dreams. I had a dream that I almost ate meat (I’m a vegetarian with vegan tendencies); I had a dream that I ate a piece of pie and hated that I was; I … Continue reading

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A Good Morning

Well, it’s 8 am and I’ve already been up for an hour. Actually, I’ve been up longer than that, I just didn’t choose to fully be that thing known as “awake” until 7. I haven’t even had coffee yet, but … Continue reading

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People

I’ve had to cut people out of my life before. Between emotional abuse, bullying, frustration, and codependency, the relationships just weren’t healthy. And the people tended to live far away from me, so it was fairly easy to do. Don’t … Continue reading

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