Monthly Archives: September 2012

Angry

I’m angry. After a week of starving and purging, I’ve only lost two pounds. Damn it. I’m exhausted today. Woke up, “ate breakfast,” purged, went to the gym and bicycled for 18.5 miles, came back and actually ate some semblance … Continue reading

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Lonely

“What’s wrong?” He plopped down on the chair across from me, sitting on it backwards and resting his arms across the top. I was silent a moment before looking up at him. “I’m tired of being lonely.” He didn’t say … Continue reading

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Seen

Jimmy noticed the scratches. It was wonderful and terrible, being seen. For the most part, I’ve been going with the “hiding in plain sight” method. Last Tuesday… I think it was Tuesday, might have been Monday… Anyhoo, earlier last week, … Continue reading

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Did you notice?

“Hi honey!” He looked up, distracted from his briefcase for a moment. “Oh, hi dear. How was your day?” “Good!” I’d lost five pounds. “Notice anything?” He looked me over, his face dumb. Suddenly it lit up. “You’re pregnant!” My … Continue reading

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How It Used to Be

Mmmm, brain shocks. Of multiple kinds. Not sure if it’s from the lack of electrolytes or the fact that I haven’t been on one of my meds for three days now. (That was totally an accident, and I plan to … Continue reading

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The World’s Gone Fuzzy

I’m purging so much. I barely keep anything down anymore. And I hate that the pounds aren’t just plummeting off. The world’s going fuzzy. I can hardly think straight. I feel tired all the time. And yet I’m not satisfied. … Continue reading

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Do you remember when…

Do you remember being able to eat food because you wanted it and not thinking about it afterwards? Do you remember when food wasn’t calories on a plate but was just… food? Do you remember when songs didn’t make you … Continue reading

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